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Meryl Yeo, Yawen
(Meryl has been my maiden nickname since 2003. Yeo Yawen is my full name.
I’m the only one in my family whose Full Chinese name 杨 or 楊 (Yeo) 雅雯 (Yawen) sounds like 3 Yes-es, looks like it’s nurturing or raining high literature/high culture, or like elegant colourful cloud patterns. I’m also the only one in the family whose full name alone looks and sounds like three friendly/funny/jolly Yes’s in some European languages — ‘Yeohh’, ‘Yahhh’, ‘Yawww’ (Yor/ YYw), so it also looks unusually joyful. Conversely, it also looks like the cloud could be taking a wee piss on culture from outside the picture as the last word (in my name) and all you can see is the rain and the culture (see youtube.com/trueorigin). The other 3 reasons are a bit PG.) I look nothing like the comedian Jimmy whose initials spell Joy, he’s a dead ringer for my younger sister. At present I have some unusual sunburn/bronzing patterns across parts of my face that will be there for at least 6-12 months, which can’t be covered by makeup so I look like I’m wearing a costume party mask of a certain furry ballsy Japanese restaurant host/greeter statue when I show up.)
The other two sound like either no or exceptional literature/culture, or endless rain over a forest.
*Authorities in Switzerland registered my name without giving me a say or allowing corrections, as:
Yawen Schindhelm née Yeo
even though I’m Singaporean Hainanese/Hakka Chinese, repeatedly instructed and corrected them on retaining my maiden surname Yeo, never deposited a legal name change form, told them it’s illegal to change my parents on their Swiss govt records, and reported the matter to the relevant Singaporean Ministries multiple times.
I give no endorsement to anyone nor their works through this.
I was born in Singapore at Gleneagles Hospital in the 80’s as Yeo Yawen, to Singaporean Hainanese & Hakka Chinese parents. I speak Cambridge English (UK) fluently, and some Mandarin since I went to Nanyang Pri/Girls’, and can compose works and songs in most languages spanning the entire linguistic family trees.
My ex-husband was born in Germany and became a Swiss citizen, and is over 20 years older than me. He speaks German, some English and no Mandarin Chinese. He writes mainly in German.
He shouldn’t be mistaken as me. We are divorced.
I’m really lucky to have been able to leave a bad situation and unhealthy people to start anew. It was made impossible to do it for years, as the administration was clearly set up to stop me from leaving despite consistently reporting to relevant authorities and providing clear and compelling evidence of what was seriously wrong. And even after divorce it still needs to be undone by a lawyer, as I was registered like a dead person or someone with no status despite being Singaporean from a top family background with works deemed of high cultural value and an official invite from the Swiss government certifying I had legal right of stay. As of Jan 2026 I’ve managed to hire a Swiss lawyer, who is contacting authorities on the matter.
I and my company are strictly Standalones.
Ignostic Freethinker. No religion. Staunch critic of martyrdom.
I’ve never done roleplay, whether work or hobby-related. I’ve never been an actress, and distanced myself to set myself apart as a living Artist of my own making. I have always been myself, and as an original composer I use a creative process to birth things that feature characters and omni-layered translations in them.
I enjoy my Birthday celebrations and cherish every single one. I absolutely love doing something special for myself, and never run out of reasons to celebrate my special day. If I ever miss one, or if suddenly someone claims I decided it’s unimportant to celebrate when asked, please know that they are lying or trying to deprive me of something.
In this lifetime I’ve never had children, never given birth nor been pregnant in the last years. I’ve never adopted. I’ve been incubating my Ideas alone, in Singapore, having returned from my 3rd trip to Switzerland and 3rd attempt to find a solution and lawyer. There is an issue from home, for which I’m filing a police report. My mail has been mishandled and withheld in my absence.
I’m the only one in my immediately family who paid my own tertiary school fees. International fees. I graduated in Australia before 2015 and opened up my studio at 22 Starlight Road, paying for the first year on my own and with my then-boyfriend pitching in during the second year. However, there was something wrong as the setup was mercenary — not designed for local artists but rather developed world poachers, unlike Melbourne there was markedly no from-the-ground-up culture of full-fledged medium-sized independent artists doing just that. Everyone in Singapore is kept small and revolving around academia or inappropriate hobby situations with clear lack of independence (post-retirement, social media, people being surprised that you’re independent and/or that you charge money for your art or works or negotiate commercial/business contracts, would-be funders thinking that they’re going to tell you what to make or what to say and totally change your art or message beyond recognition — even when it’s not involving a commission), the next thing up were the large institutions and it’s such common knowledge that even a Swiss diplomat remarked on that during a dinner.
I am the original composer and ‘singer’ of the 10-minute intonation from the Villa of Amun/Allmen, including the music video. There were more. This is my Heritage, as a Master and Composer. Should you require verification on Ownership/Authorship: The individual came back and asked if it was ‘Ormen’. There are only 2 people on the planet — I, and they, unless they told someone or a communication channel was compromised — who know my answer to their own Question, and also why the intonation for “your eyes” is two same tones. Please ask the person who claims to be me, or claims to have been given the authority to lead and/or compose in my stead, to answer your question and elaborate. They should also be able to fully describe how the other party felt both times when I gave them the answer. Fully — timing, everything. If this person is no longer around, you would need to interpret the full song and imagery.
It should be fairly obvious to any with at least some literacy, that none of the latest material coming out is mine.
I was only ever paid out from my own funds which were royalties for my works. My funds are now being held unauthorized by unknown parties and needs tracing — one unknown girl has made of with part of the funds, there’s still a significant amount which needs tracing. I’ve changed my number. My tax number is not the same anymore after divorce, there is a terrible financial practice that the Swiss spouse keeps the old number. My names are not the same anymore. My phone number has changed. My Swiss bank account is closed. I said no to signing everything even when they used criminal force and police, but they were able to make any kind of document they wanted because Swiss authorities had allowed them to register me as a different person when I moved and refused to correct it.
I think it says everything when the only way they can rebut you or make you appear like you’re less in control and powerful than you really are is by taking you somewhere else and using covert government administration in a country like Switzerland, where it’s not supposed to exist, using a warm family invite and approved application to register you as a different person who doesn’t exist so that they can hold you hostage and never have to answer to you as a Living person. In some circles, being a target of this is arguably the biggest compliment anyone can ever pay you. And they’ll want to know what you really did that had such an impact and significance that someone would put in that much money to have you done in this way. Because no one puts that much money on the table to destroy a ‘nobody’ who is ‘none too bright’ and has done ‘nothing’ with 'no or works to show for’. Maybe after a harmless conversation, they realized some “good guys” have been doing bad things. Maybe, it made some '“bad guys” wanna do good things. And maybe, that’s “not supposed to happen”. Because bad guys are always ‘supposed’ to do bad things. They’re not supposed to know how to do anything good. Good guys are always ‘supposed’ to do good things. They’re not supposed to know how to do anything bad. Why? Because “they said so”? Who’s “they”? Who are these people, who want to have a say, on what we get to be, what we get to do, what life comes to mean for us. Yes, I’m a nobody. I’ve done nothing. So why are they making such a big deal? Because it’s not for me. If it’s not for me, it’s for them. So what’s it to them? Why are they bothered? Someone’s not telling the truth. And the Truth, is what’s interesting.
They’re afraid, that I’ll show everyone how to access our own Blueprint just by Remembering. How to be unafraid of being ourselves, unafraid to be playful. They’re afraid that the world will find out the Truth of what we are beyond a physical existence in the Now, about our Heritage that all of us were Born with. No religion, no group, no allegiance to belief systems or doctrines needed, and even if you’re a believer of something, there’s no need to change your beliefs per se and in fact you’re needed because only you can tell the rest of us what the view looks like from there. You need only have interest in learning about Yourself in relation to the World we live in, and all that’s in it. That’s what they’re afraid of. They’re afraid that old enemies will see the Truth and lay down arms to work together for solutions against the real challenges. They’re afraid of losing significance and power, when Nobodies turn within and meet themselves. When Nobodies learn that we’ve been trying to peek at the next stage through a keyhole and make that keyhole larger when we can just figure out how to open the door and walk through. Yes, that was me. And the rest, that was all everyone else! (I told you guys they were gonna be real angry at me)
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If anyone seems unusually emotionally invested in claiming I’m “crazy”, perhaps they’re trying to hide a serious crime they’ve committed, that they’re afraid of people finding out. Perhaps they feel afraid and powerless around me, and are unable to do anything but do me dirty behind my back then pull the crazy card. Perhaps they’re the ones trying to buy themselves time to illegitimately cash out on my royalty earnings/funds, by preventing me from hiring a legal team for as long as possible because that would stop them from completing their theft. If the abusers are among the elites, they have nowhere to run or hide. Or perhaps they’re just secretly miserable when someone seems happy and “has everything” — maybe they think what I have should be theirs, having assumed it’s all about “luck” rather than just admit I’m the best at what I do. Maybe they grossly misassessed me and are still in shock at my appraised value from the experts — before I got the invite to Switzerland. Maybe they’re even among the ones behind the administrative ‘issue’ in Switzerland.
Also, if anyone claims that I received more money in the last years than I’ve ever seen in my life, please note that this is patently untrue. My family counted among the nation’s top wealth in Singapore before our situation changed around the turn of the millenia. The bank vault in our business alone cost us upwards of S$3m (~1.8m CHF) in the 70’s to put in, we owned our own freehold property — good class and semi-d — and 3 cars in Singapore at any given time; our wealth was multi-generational from before Temasek even became Singapore. Needless to say, we also had certain ties where you can’t simply walk up to the person and make friends, especially if they’re among those who founded the country. So I did see that much money in my teens. And I paid my own way through school and life, from zero and outside the system where no one even knew my family, never from the grace’s of anyone’s charity. There were many kind people along the way who opened doors, or pitched in to make things easier because they felt strongly about what they witnessed. Just because some people became deathly afraid when they saw I would surpass them in works and significance seemingly alone without even so much as the power of a state, gives them no right to take away my real self-achievements and assets/IP, my ability to own what I make and freely inherit, and/or my life.
I give no endorsement to any parties I have been seen to be in a relationship with in the last 5-7 years in Singapore then Switzerland. I have hired a lawyer.
My mistake was that I didn’t tell Rem, Mr. Lim S. G., either of the Quandts what was happening when I met them in person as there was no time to react (due to the sheer brutality of what had just happened just before each of those times and I was in complete shock as to who was doing it — all of my own family at the time), to establish my direct contact, and in doing so others mistook this as my endorsement of the individual I was seen with which was never my intention. My first thought was to protect everyone’s reputation because that’s how we are in a cultured world. When I found my bearings there was no way to get another audience. Because of his CV and link to a former woman Head of State I never thought my partner would go that far or that it was me that needed protecting. I was in complete shock at the time, there were events that happened just prior and I thought I could still talk to our lawyers and do something. Due to my accomplishments in life up till then, I never thought I would ever come across a situation where it was impossible to hire or convince a lawyer or high professional. And also impossible to get help from the Singaporean ministries who were completely unable to respond and had no idea how to do anything, nor did they pass the message on. Absolutely unfathomable. They even blocked me from seeing Indranee.
If there was anyone on my team their mistake was that they never established direct contact with me and allowed our conversation to be relayed or triangulated by middlemen without identifying themselves to me so that I could stop the process. We also never anticipated that someone in my family would practically sign my death warrant.
Before I left for Switzerland I had informed people of what to look out for to know that something was wrong that required me to be pulled out immediately. All those signs were fulfilled.
Singaporean, born to Singaporean parents. No one was Singaporean before 1965, just saying.
Oh, and my room at home when I was in SQ and then later when I looked after the dogs in Singapore before I went offline — my younger brother’s been living in there so I’m using the middle room right next to that (I’ve spoken of this room before).
I’ve never had a platform where anyone could access my likeness or personal content.
In my entire lifetime, I have never had an addiction and/or major illness.
Not even once.
Everything I carry on me is purchased by myself, or paid to me as gifts from a fund which is mine, held under my name as per the Swiss Civil Register, for monies and expenses owed to me but apparently administrated to look like it belonged to someone else even though the funds only had my name on it. And I had never signed anything that would give consent to this. I was also given no access to things that were recorded on paper to have been given to me, including my basic right to stay and have a proper Swiss ID issued. So all my expenses were because I was never given a stay and when you are given “nothing” and have all your rights removed, everything becomes extremely expensive for you to arrange simply because you’re paying for uncontrolled expenses on things that you already have on paper as a given but they just refuse to give you access to last minute which turns everything into an emergency with corresponding expenses. It’s like having having an undeclared war of attrition waged on you, while your real ID is being held hostage as a misgendered record, to facilitate criminal extortion enabled by rogue and corrupt government administrators/legislators. And when I put my foot down, showed my ability, and arranged to leave even though they had made it impossible, they retaliated as if saying no to them was a crime by killing me off administratively. It cost me 3 years’ travel and expenses before it was even possible to hire the first lawyer. Perhaps tellingly, one of the most decorated career women in that region had asked me three times to make sure that no one would take up my case, before she agreed to administrate a necessary item in 2024 at 10x the market price (joke, all terms upfront 1 page, standard copy and paste contract, one visit to pretura and two rubber stamps on two copies for each party, advertised that she knew English but spoke through a man, no need to even speak to the other lawyer. I come from a land founded by lawyers and was even born connected to that community, everybody and their dog knows how they work). None of those Uni grads or Masters holders were even educated to a Singapore SAP school (top high school) standard. I was co-writer and editor of full legal letters that secured us dates in the Singapore appeals court by the time I was 14. And these people were suddenly allowed to be in charge of me (and apparently everyone else) in my adulthood, saying that they were the best in the land, while I’m paying them through my nose to apparently mess up my basic ID paperwork even on admin items that a 5-year old could do blindfolded, and then refuse corrections that a 12-year old could do blindfolded.
My 2016 Zinemaking workshop held at the Substation/.SingLitStation can be seen on their official page, where there is a photo of me. I have the photo in full colour. I’m unafraid to show up, no matter what. :) It’s just going to be on my terms. If anyone’s under the illusion that I have no other options, they’re wrong.
Switzerland was thought of as possibly one of the suitable countries for a long incubation period for my private practice in Art & Culture with no undue pressure for fast turnovers (literature/culture), but as I was there for marriage and due to their laws (and also inability to enforce the ones that exist) it was unable to afford me the freedom to do a proper introduction — like how I introduced myself to Melbourne.
All my creations are my own originals unless specified. I choose and purchase my own material, choose every turn of phrase, word, stroke, space, technique, timing and tone right down to every meticulous detail. I strive for Independence of Thought and Application of my own Self-realized Individualism in all that I do, which shows in my purchasing decisions across everything I have in life barring gifts from friends and family. The usual fearmongering has no hold on me since I developed myself independently since young. People who want some form of control sometimes suggest you’re a problem for that reason alone. They often also wrongly assume you’ve benefited from a lottery system, and in my case would be wrong. I’ve earned everything I have through rolling up my sleeves and doing the hard yards, even if they arrange on paper to payout (only partial so far) like I benefited . Fortunately, common sense can win out. Back to my blueprint.
I was never just a beneficiary of free money or a lottery system. I'm only being paid out my own funds owed to me. The amounts concerned are Royalties for all of my original works combined which appeared in the places that they have and are still being used indefinitely till this day for a 10 year run and counting. Many of these works were highly awarded and successful, with my material used from end to end without edits or substitutions (including director notes, etc), arranged in a way that references me but stops me from claiming direct credit as their original author — this is how royalties work today. These are Fortune 500 companies. I have worked with such companies during my earlier career as well in entry level jobs (when I wnted the time to myself to develop in private according to my own Vision), except this time I’m an author and artist. Of course I can stand next to my works and talk about them, but I would need a way to launch them and this time I know better — I’ll do it alone.
I’ve never signed a contract of owing following any alleged down payment. After they were allowed to do what I described to my Swiss administration, first registering me as a different person when I moved (they were wrong to do so) and many more administratively, they were able to make any kind of document they wanted in Switzerland without needing my consent. None of the documents and contracts they have made are valid.
In order to even understand why my works commanded such high value, you would need to bring in a highly specialized cultural expert and assessor who has the ability and knowledge to forensically examine the works in question and discern that I am the Author, also be able to provide an appraisal of how much that would command on the market. Tthe Japanese Nobel scientist Mr. Toshihide Maskawa who won the Nohel Prize for his work on CP-Violations also never handed in homework and he said so in his 2008 Nobel speech, so any continued disbelief is unfounded. There are also other Singaporeans who made it abroad in Europe recently, one who opened a bakery in a small town and a girl from a certain JC who married an Italian and opened a restaurant. They both made the news. So if anyone says going abroad means you abandoned your country, tell them that there’s one other place that believes that — North Korea. We’re Singapore. Be Singaporean. In my case I was specially assessed to be exactly the person they were looking for, and the introduction was facilitated through the highest diplomatic channels with practically an endorsement by our local ministers of this individual, who woo-ed me for 2.5 years before I was convinced of the offer. It really is a matter of whether you were given access to the right setup in the first place, because clearly it matters that you’re set up with the right people both in Singapore and abroad. It’s not just their CV, but their intention and plans for you — sometimes they’re just unhappy that they’re unable to claim credit for your success because you actually succeeded outside of the system and they feel you’re out of their control. And sometimes you’re seen as a threat when you become too influential and what they consider to be surpassing them. I think when some people understood I was not just making them proud but actually going to surpass them, things took a deadly turn for me. I know it’s hard to fathom, but some just are unable to get over the fact that my family failed once at the end of the 90’s and they simply never got over the fact that I had held a tray and they were unwilling to let my family move on. Just this fact alone shows that there’s something else that’s wrong, a different level of interference. I continued to meet supporters but I was once warned by someone whom I almost married in my earlier 20s, who was part of the police/army network, that my family had been cursed, that I would never be able to build momentum, and he also cryptically apologized for what he had “done to” me. I hadn’t fully understood at the time, but I forgave him. In an interesting coincidence he had actually tracked me down using my online profile, the same way I had been tracked down and reeled back in from Australia to be tested in Singapore to see if I genuinely had the Abilities reported, then brought over to Switzerland. I understand that some things fall under the umbrella of persecution. What was done to me and my family (before I was revealed to be the gifted) would qualify. I became proof that no one needed to be broken/suffer under their lottery system or make such sacrifices, we owe nothing to any outside people put in charge of our development and were never creative/successful only because we were beneficiaries of their superimposed upper management and system. I proved that even if they take everything away from you, we can succeed on our own merit without being unfairly made to look like beneficiaries of their charity or cleverness on paper. We were born with whatever we would’ve needed to succeed. And I proved we were never sterile nor required conditioning with their “charity” and alleged sophisticated models, that all we needed was a chance to find sincere and suitable equal partners. I demonstrated this.
I think the world can work together. What we can ill afford, are bad actors setting it up because they hate to see us get along and work together. They’re deathly afraid we’ll get together, compare notes and figure things out for ourselves, that their functions will be meaningless. They create obstacles so that when I talk about what they have organized to be done to me, trying to get help and keep myself safe by making people aware of the situation, others could mistakenly think I’m saying there’s no way to work together and nothing good that can come of it — which is untrue. There’s people trying to stop any of us from ever meeting and working with each other independently. They often pretend to offer real opportunities, insert themselves, and make us think they are us. Then they destroy the potential of a connection in what would’ve otherwise been an ideal and mutually beneficial union and relationship between cultures and people. These covert operations hurt us most. But none of that will stop any of us — they wish. Instead of running into them abroad as I seem to have these last years, I’ll make my own way so that my stand and beliefs/works will be impossible for them to twist and/or lie about. Then we’ll all be good for connection, if it should so please us, once we meet and understand one another.
We all have problems. Our countries have problems. You and I, we’re all different. It’s good that way. I still see you, I still believe we’re stronger in our differences. We have our quarrels, our own life challenges — so what. As long as we are dedicated to being individuals we have a chance that everything is (still) possible given time and effort. Possible each as ourselves, impossible with these groups.
Some unusual events happened in Switzerland, including the fields on my forms apparently being changed by others backend (religion? Catholic, instead of Freethinker — I triple checked the forms with Embassy consular staff, it was all correct), administration. I wasn’t able to walk about it much except try and report the technicalities/problem here but I see there’s a limit to text and video. These things can only be discussed the old way, in person. Something odd also happened with the wedding rings, the fittings and sizings I was given, how they turned out being sized for the third finger. I was given a strange reason when asked to wear my wedding ring on a different finger on my wedding day, which almost caused me to call it all off until I was given triple assurances this was part of a plan to clapback to naysayers/detractors and get us on track. Something happened during the photoshoots, changes. Emails were strange, with differences in quantity from one email to another but seemed easy to request corrections and give benefit of doubt when the other cited stress as a reason, since this had never happened before. My 2016 Art of Zinemaking workshop points to the wrong person’s instagram account, of a totally different racial background and geography and native spoken language (I speak Cambridge English).
I’m pretty hardy, saavy as ever and clued up. I get it.
I’ve hired a civil rights lawyer as of this year and am making progress, one step at a time.
Regardless of where you’re at in life in any given point, the only constant is that one same person you have to live with and face in your alone moments which is your Self.
In future, everything will be traceable right down to the very last author, every human being, every strand. Everything else falls away in time, revealing all. There is only one objective truth. The most valuable “things” will be of our unique and unadulterated human expression and spirit, from authentically lived human experience and real memories that nothing external can corrupt. All the the people who stand most to gain from destroying humanity, who throw people under the bus, wish hard that they can get away with it, write any human being off as AI — well they’d better be prepared to fail hard too, ’cause they’ve grossly misassessed the future and what it means to be in it. They are all eyes that fail to see, they are all ears everywhere but are never able hear the music of the ever-moving, ever-shaking world that exists and continues despite all, in spite of all. I refuse to take on their bitterness. I will stay open and show up for myself in a way that makes me proud with the satisfaction that I’ve done what’s right for me. And for what it’s worth, here I come with pen and brush as sword. :>
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All Rights Reserved, 2026 Meryl Yeo, Yawen
