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Meryl Yeo, Yawen
Actually written & illustrated by a person (me! As above, and below)
*Registered in Switzerland without a say, as:
Yawen Schindhelm née Yeo*
(formerly aka Mrs. Michael Schindhelm 2019-2024)
My Singapore passport name has never changed. I defer to none.
By law, Swiss authorities have to respect my choice as per passport.
They first and foremost do it to themselves, there’s a level of interference where no one there seems to have a real choice or own anything anymore but seems like they can’t speak up about it.
My numbers have changed.
I’m an Independent writer of Literature, and Fine Artist from Singapore (non-Government), entirely self-funded and self-directed.
Trueorigin is my Channel Name,
Conceived of by myself in Australia in 2012 as a sole proprietor;
It’s never been a Family name.
It’s unrelated to any other individual or group.
I’m firmly non-AI. I’m entirely self-directed in all aspects of life and healthy — even if there are those who wƒish that it were untrue — and am my own boss. No parent company, no benefactors. I have no problem with “chronic fatigue”, all I have to do is remove myself from toxic people who keep interfering to get my material or arrange so I appear to live for them, and it’s all good. Full energy right now, better than ever, out the gate. :)
Although some people seem to want my works and life to be about them, it’s got nothing to do with them per se. They’re just exaggerating their importance, or in some cases interfering because they’re the ones with issues letting go and seeing someone like myself move on with the fertile connection, feeling unable to be part of it. They’ll have to learn to settle their own emotions, and that there’s no contractual (“karmic”) transfer for those of us who exist firmly outside such agreements. Just make adhoc agreements with me properly. Otherwise you’re the ones racking up your own tabs.
I’m no employee. I’m not being paid at all by anyone’s company, and I receive no benefits except the ones I give myself. I’m the business owner. I insure myself and pay for my own accommodation (such as in Australia). I’m free to arrange my own plans. By the way, I have no home in Italy or the Italian speaking part. So if you’ve been funding somebody for it, none of it is going to me and the individual you’re giving it to has done nothing to protect me. If anything, I’ve had to double my efforts in defending myself since our involvement as my precious time and resources were rather taken away from my own career and life — hence the temporary appearance of my life stalling or disappearing off the radar. I mean their countries are beautiful, but there’s no reason to stay (you should see their faces when you say this frankly). None of them are really equipped and serviced for any kind of living apart from camping, and they need you to be downtrodden/deferential or they’re really surprised. Since 2000. They can’t possibly be surprised all the time. That’s the real reason it’s so much more likely for service staff to get compliment letters from Caucasian expats, it’s not because they’re so kind but because their leaders stiffed them of real First World living, they’ve had to live with really low standards (compliments — another topic for another day).
I actually signed a real paper and showed up in person to live a real life. No point if anyone wants to claim I’m ‘naive’ when they’ve no idea what they just lost out on. The reality is that I proudly took up the challenge and exposed some people as fakes pretending to be more advanced than they really are, how they just can’t step up to the plate when directly confronted on their dishonesty. Some people just never learn. Fine by me.
My works and I are about the truth against all odds, without the fake colours and distortions of politics/control — authentic human expression & experience, the truths we live out in our real lives on the ground and as they’re experienced.
The material I compose/create is original. It’s primary Source. Meaning there are no other authors, past or present. Let’s drop any pretenses that what I do or anything I write were allegedly dedicated to, written for, or “because” of any individual. Nothing I do has ever been a love project, activism or to cheer someone up — it’s a testimony, and philosophy-driven. I’m as a philosopher, holding up a mirror of truth. There’s nothing greater than the love of ideas, apart from the love of humanity as a whole. Mis-associating any of my works and/or activities with a love story trope is just another lazy attempt at discrediting my works and value as a creator, and anyone who believes it is rather temporarily compromised in their faculties (or grossly misled by others, at best).
My artwork and story go beyond entertainment. It’s a testimony. Something happened in Singapore, for which my family and I became prime targets. In the chaos there were covert things being done, for alleged reasons only glimpsed in near-myth. But it made no sense, even in childhood I knew something was terribly wrong especially because the community they said it was all coming from — that was us. Some people were trying to change our story. Things happened. They wouldn’t take no for an answer, wanted my blood, thought to control me by my womb. I retaliated in equal measure, it was fun, and I was hunted down — for them it was not just fun. There were groups, hate groups. I’m just an individual. I know what happened, how. Who were responsible. How it started before I was born. Where it all started even before that, back to the lands from which it came. The agreements. And more. I’ve tracked them across my career, seen what some of them look like. Think of it however you wish, no one who has ever put themselves in charge of me has ever managed to protect me and I’m the only one in charge now. No one speaks for me, and I speak for none. Switzerland celebrated itself as a safe haven. Said they understood. I never went there only to be made to reprise some version of what I had already overcome. I must say, they have some really bad leaders. For a while these permanently salty people seem to have been in a competition to see who can make me give up on my dreams first, they get off on any suffering they can create and pleasure they can deny — they actually get angry each time they see me move on and how well I do for myself, as if they wish my happiness were tied to them! It’s bizarre.
They tried to change my story, give it to others, make it about others. Tried to remove us from the heart of the communities, say we don’t exist. I feel so sorry for them and the life they have to live. There’s no need to follow such bad leaders, or be so uncool. I thought some people I met in the last years could be leaders, but instead they just joined in that competition to see who could put me down first and hurt me in the womb to stop me from naturally showing up as a leader, like there was money behind it. Some of them were so mentally unfit when I met them, and seem to only grow more bitter when shown sympathy or given opportunities. I feel sorry for the opportunity they just missed out on. I just had no idea how bitter and self-hating some could be, as if they’ve already accepted that they have no future. It’s like they try to stick a knife in then pop by periodically expecting to hear you talk about your miseries or how downtrodden you are, like it’s been highly incentivized. Then they act totally confused and scared (or angry) when they find you’ve instead turned it into a triumph and laugh about it, talk about the future. The one they act like you should’ve been deprived of. In their view, you should be a victim by now. I mean who are these people and what kind of leaders do they follow? I guess some have low standards and have never worked above a certain calibre and fitness level in situations where they manage to enjoy their results. And people remember. We quietly do it our way, even when it’s been made unsafe to be ourselves out in the open sometimes, we do what we can while staying safe, step by step, ignoring the -isms that try to lie about our nature and force us to give our narratives away. And I’ve never stopped Dreaming, our pristine and inimitable Singapore Dream. All these people want in, but this is something they’ve never been able to defile or touch. They’re unable to work with the material. They let Western queens grace the covers of global magazines, while our real-life equivalents are made to be in rags, or made up to look like the opposite of what we are (administratively too apparently!), cast down to the bottom and/or be made invisible, while everyone’s told we don’t exist, are servants or up for sale — but this is hardly the truth, the people who say this of us or try to arrange it administratively (more likely) are just the haters trying hard to make sure of it. They’re trying to change our story, key word trying; they’ve certainly been trying to change mine for the past years — stick on some tacky thing from someplace else as if Id fit into the next best mould (sorry I’m totally bespoke), or they only know of something that’s already happened before so this must be it and you have no say. A lot of them doing this are pretending to be friends or kindred souls also from the First World, pretending they’re ready and living up to their own espoused standards (they’re not, a lot of them are actually quite backwards and seem to need more time to catch up to their own parroted ideologies whereas my mindset is totally custom-built by myself in the English-speaking First World and layered over time; none of them are qualified to instruct and unless they’re working peer-to-peer with or under me — which again, they’re not — they’re mostly hogging data/information and resources or not publishing your responses to falsely look like they are in charge or are higher qualified to instruct — once again, they’re none of these and in several cases are unqualified as many a Singaporean professional on the ground has noted) or some sort of role models teaching us something that’s good for us when most of them aren’t even positioned to do anything more than make a quick buck with their marketing spin because many leaders in the West keep their people poor and trapped in cycles where they have to do it for survival even if they hate themselves for it later and overcompensate by giving it up to opportunistic gurus who make money anytime they can alienate them from their own cultural anchors and families; the ones who want to pay tin coins for our immortal material, are victims too and can only make a victim of you!
But I think there are those of us who know better and have started to see through this, possibly see suitable solutions. Those of us who never give up. Those of us who stay open to each other and the world. And, I’m on it. I know there are those who also know we can do better for ourselves — I mean look at most of what’s out there in books, movies and games. Little to none of what’s out there has anything that I would aspire towards or want to learn from, as a self-respecting woman from a First World community where my direct ancestors already have one of the strongest undoctored histories of natural top leadership in women and men. No quotas, no political movements, and honestly no big fuss but if there’s one thing I actually did learn from the West - sometimes keeping quiet is a bad solution. Sometimes, you have to speak up. The machines try real hard to tick the boxes, but it’s just so creepy~ I’ve heard healthy guys share this view on the role models available to them too. Is that really the best one can hope for oneself, if others had their way? You mean our narratives are being erased for this… stuff, and that’s supposed to be better and something to look up to? How. They’ve done something that takes me a while to recover, tried to falsely associate me with their irrelevant ideologies, industry machines and/or political problems to obscure my apolitical message and non-fiction story. But the truth will prevail, and I’m heartened to know that it will hardly be the one that these misery profiteers want to see. Even when we’ve achieved the impossible, there will be salty people who try all means and ways to deny it ever happened, that we ever existed, or lie about our value/stop us from succeeding/providing for ourselves so that they’ll be the only ones left to take over and make money off of it when we’re out of the way. I’m often told that the West and their minority henchmen don’t see us as equals, and it’s the Westerners themselves who are telling me this and apologizing, well that’s fine by me I don’t see them as equals either so we’re even. I mean if we’re talking standards, one charming bunch literally just had to kidnap me to Switzerland for some years after pulling all the stops to make it look like a legit offer with someone who could accommodate to let me have my uninterrupted career and fun with family/kids as late as possible, only to take away my nice clothes, sketchbooks/notebooks and luggages, go at it like they’re angry anytime I enjoy, (“anyhow”) arrange me to be marked as a low level employee not a boss/owner, and hold my pristine ID/admin in Switzerland only to draw puerile 1800’s doodles on it thinking it makes them temporarily look better (i.e. “I don’t give you your ID. I go and change your surname on govt database, chop you into two. If I like what you say, then you’re the person authentic stamp chop. If I don’t like what you say, then sorry you cannot access your records because I’ve marked it as another person’s receords so it’s not you, No one will believe you, I’m with the cantonal govt, my friend’s got the Human Rights HQ badge which we gave ourselves. You have to *respect* us! Actually we know there are no Communists in Singapore, we just want what you have but don’t wanna pay you or credit you as the primary Source / original Author, and people won’t believe we do this, ah-hyuck”). Says it all, they’re abysmally unable win by truthful ideas and good spirit. They had their chance, they can go away until they’re ready, and I’ll carry on finding the ones who are ready for some real authentic adventures. There are those who mostly only rely on “luck”, when they’re just really waiting to be kicked out once that luck runs out around the time they’re done digging up everything from under the ground. Then there are those of us who make our own luck. Whom everyone said would never make it, right up till we took the crown while they celebrated themselves too early, the ones who just soldier on until everyone stops laughing at us and starts laughing with us. Most people on my travels look at me and with their judgmental eyes only see some vaguely First World vaguely Westernized Asian person and assume I’m making easy profits selling empty notebooks or something, or they mistake me as an entertainer, when I’m as a philosopher writing an epic for the ages. In their vast inexperience, they’ve completely mistyped me — perhaps disingenuously, they mistake me for an entertainer, a singer or actress. Someone who only does or parrots what their handler/manager says. Makes them feel safe to think this way, perhaps. Suits me fine, as long as they’re never expecting that I’ll suddenly become as they say. I mean just look around, all the Asians in Western countries have to be downtrodden and treated as virtually monolithic (how lucky is that), what can they know? Whereas look at how well we do on our own when we’re left to our own devices, are made to start with literally zero and still win out while the usual suspects in the West’re busy celebrating themselves too early all the time, or backdating themselves too late. I also keep hearing that Asians (I mean, pick one, we’re all the same right) allegedly group together and don’t want to mix, but it seems it’s often the other way around — which is fine by me, I’d honestly rather they just say so than pretend to be alike and want to be friends, so I can make room for genuine people (of any kind) who are ready instead of having these sorts waste everyone’s and my time.
I’m independent and operating completely on my own funding. I’m not getting any help on the ground as it is, for about 6 years now and counting. In the West, they’re often unable to receive funding unless they say they’re assisting somebody in a developing country or someone officially disadvantaged (invented or not) at home. I’m from Singapore, a First World country. I receive no assistance at all. No quotas (go ahead, try it). I’ve made it on my own merit. People would do well to become a bit more educated about that (but then again they seldom, if ever, get to meet any Asians of my category, the farthest they’ve gotten is hearing from the late Mr. Lee; frankly however my patience for bs seems to lessen every year). And this is all non-fiction, I get that people want their entertainment but for anyone to try and destroy/deny and/or alter/erase the originals they’re based on is really quite something else. I’ve never applied to any ivy league University. I chose specifically to explore outside of elite academia as most of life happens there. Furthermore the politics and underdeveloped educational system is ill-suited to my goals requiring longlasting progress/memory, creativity & critical thinking.
I was a business owner while in Switzerland, in Art & Culture. My main successful works and core earnings come from groundwork I laid prior to that, I saw no reason why I would be unable to continue in my career considering their success and proven cultural significance in the West, resulting in several movements and changed the entire way the industry conceives/works with its material. If there’s something that someone wants, especially people who hold official positions in any given global top production machine, they should ask me instead of making me search for them while they’re just totally emotionally devastated about their own existence, holing themselves in feeling tormented and jealous and conflicted seeing the talent of any individual who has obvious access to this unrestrained creativity and unfettered pleasure that they want for themselves — the connection that has enabled and enables me to create this original material almost spontaneously anytime I want or require, while I’ve clearly had no need to pledge allegiance to anything or anyone, be exceptionally “pure” (by their definitions) or be anyone/any way other than myself. I’ve never had to join anything or date/marry anyone before I did and could do all this. And some of us actually make money from solutions and gainful endeavours, only those who think too highly of themselves but never fixed their own broken countries (which they broke) would look at someone like me and seriously believe it must be from easy or dirty money, rather than think ‘hey maybe she actually found some good solutions, and you do need some epic friends to pull of what she did so…’.
I’m never transliterating from somebody else’s ancient/existing compositions, but actually spontaneously composing entirely *new and pristine* material true to those languages/root cores and for the first time. Meaning, it’s the true original pure first/primary Source in all time of which I’m the only main/lead creator (no prizes for guessing why I chose Trueorigin as my website name), independent of anyone else so if anyone puts that work out before I even have a chance to, but instead of helping me out disingenuously claims I’m just doing rehashed odes to cheerlead them or otherwise attempts to downplay the nature of my material to excuse themselves, the contents of my works will tell on them because master material carries multiple meanings while lacking any ambiguity. And everyone’s certainly entitled to their personal opinions but if that’s all it is then what’s the problem with me being able to create new source material like this and why should anyone act all disingenuous about the matter. Much less be desperate to discredit it/ arrange for it to look fake or attempt to damage/syphon it as a first response, almost like they believe they’re going to get away with something.
And because my access to resources has been so greatly reduced by irresponsible/spiteful/vengeful & petty gatekeepers for not being one of them, but an independent, I’m now dragging the (proven) material across continents in a box doing my own manual transfers, in overpriced substandard and sometimes perilous travel/housing conditions, while my Singapore passport does me absolutely no favours in this regard.
There’s no excuse to put up for sale my recordings and/or manuscripts claiming it was inherited from your relative(s), when it’s obviously brand new material that’s just been created and is the Original source, never published, and we have no relation, then use it in these multimillion dollar commercial productions totally unabridged, word for word and end-to-end and even my music (should I be flattered). I’m in no way being taken care of. I have no parent company, and am no one’s employee. I am unaffiliated with any TV/movie production company, religion, healer, and/or artist. I have paid them to stay at their properties while traveling around for e.g. in Australia. I’m the customer, and I’m my own boss. I decide when I get paid, when I pay people to stay somewhere and whatnot that’s my money. I’m on no one’s payroll and drawing no benefits except the ones I arrange for myself.
I have no disabilities, and am known for my robust good health and having a bit of a sharp tongue that minces little (I tend to be nicer to certain people, go figure out which ones). The only people who have a problem with that are fogies who still think we should be flattened with opium (their problem). It’s always just a handful of sour people who want to see me put down for their own gains (incidentally, many of them appear to have suffered from real illnesses, whereas my creativity comes from a healthy connection and deep meditative ability). I’m paying good money for my stays at Airbnb’s (above-average rates) and Booking.com/Agoda websites, entirely out of my own pocket, and I plan and arrange my own travel itineraries and transfers (also paid for by myself — no company claims, I run my own company with no one else above me). I’m also fully responsible for my own healing. As these are my own expenses which I paid for out of my own pocket, born of my own efforts and manual online searches, I would decline to have them presented as though I were being provided charity/ free accommodation and/or as if someone else were responsible for paying my bills and/or healing me.
Certain people have always found excuses to not pay the original authors and inventors, press us into the ground to try and force us to abandon everything and run while they take over our material and claim they’re the author/inventors.
When I peaked and became noticed for my abilities and works, it became impossible for others to downplay my significance or attack my character/ideas without giving weight to my ideas/person and/or sounding like they were being sour. Since then and especially in recent years, there seems to have been strong efforts made by others to instead try and cast doubt on my identity/authorship, or arrange to give away credit to unrelated individuals and causes for my own success and healing in ways that they were never involved in. It’s taken some time to get back on track, but I’ve never moped and never stopped moving.
I’m entirely self-made; I am and have been the one responsible for my own success, enabled by my own applied choices and efforts. I was born with the ability. There were those who saw this and chose to quietly help me and/or open doors, remove obstacles in my path, but I’m the main person responsible for doing my own healing and arrangements. Others have helped me release blocks, get there faster and/or facilitated, but the work and ability is mine. No one taught me, I did those parts myself without assistance. Even in today’s vast sea of public misinformation, I can discern what I need to and actually find it slightly amusing, because none of this is enough to stop me — including the false meta here in Australia, where I’ve already made several of my own transfers (to the apparent shock of others who seem unaccustomed to being noticed much less meeting someone in control of themselves — which means I am really who I say I am, and have accomplished what I’ve accomplished, even if they are unwilling to admit that I’m the real deal. There were people who wanted what I have, but worried that I’d become too influential due to my level of authenticity and drive). I have a younger sister who lives in Melbourne, who happened to take some of my personal belongings when I left in 2015. In no way does this confer access to my identity, my abilities and/or what I have achieved. I’ve helped her with her resume and cover letter while in Melbourne from 2010-2015, and she got her first job in her 30s. I’ve had a strong career since age 19, and am no longer an employee of any company. As the business owner, I insure myself and decide when I want to pay myself.
True Leaders use their positions to effect great change, rather than just hog the positions and do nothing. It’s odd that I would be expected to fulfill some kind of leadership role when I’ve been given neither the position or resources to do so. It’s the responsibility of whoever is officially given that position and being paid for it.
I authorize no use of my private details to make false claims of me being an employee of any company.
When you start being successful at anything or are noticed, it seems there are just as many people who try to help you as there are those trying to stop you. Unfortunately, there appears to be little to no immediate benefit to those who help, while the latter are clearly instantly incentivized by money, particularly when they can insert themselves as middlemen to collect what’s yours without doing the work, making sure whatever’s intended for you never reaches you. Or at least, they wish. I’m arranging my own manual transfers by. myself at present. There are people trying to give the impression that they are helping me or acting as my protector, but in fact because they do nothing but make things more difficult, take up my time/space and parasitically channel my resources to themselves, they are and have been creating obstacles to me finding/receiving help to achieve my goals because people mistakenly think something is actually being done or that I’m being helped — even when I keep saying nothing is being done. They make it look like they’re my “saviour(s)” when they’re in fact putting themselves in my way as a main obstacle to me moving forward with my plans — and it’s deliberate, rather than as an unintended effect which would have been easy to resolve.
I’ve never sold my private time, nor consented to have such a thing arranged to look like it were the case. I do no such business and it would be glaringly obvious to anyone within mere minutes of meeting me that it goes against everything I’ve ever worked for, how I’ve gone out of my way to structure my life, and that such an arrangement would’ve have had to be done behind my back — most likely to cast doubt on my authenticity/ authorship/ ownership, to try and block me from continuing to enjoy the good response I’ve had, which comes naturally and has allowed me to stay independent and mobile. I’m a full-fledged professional, not an intern or student. My original unabridged material was embraced by them as their culture, used extensively across successful global works in US fortune 500 entertainment companies for commercial purposes, and changed the way the industry operates/produces. My identifiers are actually closely woven into the material they used, end of the day there’s nowhere to run for them. It’s as though they wish to be able to stop me from being able to provide for myself the way I always have, to continue making my living doing the things I love and possibly even try to stop me from enjoying life unless I do only what “they” want to see for me. “Or else”. Because “they said so”. It may be political, since my organic success challenged/s the narratives we’re being told to accept why we can’t be/have this or that, why things have to be a certain way, or about our true nature as individual human beings in the world at large, and our alleged purpose and place in it.
I’ve never agreed to support any political cause at any time and/or be seen to do so.
People can believe and do whatever they want for themselves. As long as they’re not seriously expecting to force me into anything outside of what we’ve agreed.
For what it’s worth, here I come with pen and brush as sword. :>
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